Orchestra Rehearsal

Well well.

Mr Gray (our orchestra conductor) had been "disturbed" a little bit (yayayaa) and he decided to move our seats randomly during rehearsal JUST FOR FUN. He said so the we can actually listen to other people's part and stuffs. Whatever.

I used to play 2nd Violin part (obviously). But then I ended up sitting next to Yang Liu, the CONCERT MASTER the orchestra.

Hahahaa. Funny.

NOT.

It wasn't over.

We eventually have to sightread a new song. 

Once again, SIGHT READ.

FYI, I SUCK so bad at sight reading! Especially on violin. Honestly I can do better on marimba or xylophone but uh well.

AND I had to play 1st violin part too.

My Gray ignored my argument on not-wanting-to-play-1st-violin-part; Nikita, sophomore 1st chair cello gave me his daily "Shut up Egalita" and move his freakin stand so he can't see me (thank YOU so much), and Jojo, 1st chair viola just laughed as always. In other word, I had no choice but to sightread the damn song.

Next to the best violinist at school, of course.

Now.

I was actually better than I thought.

The whole point is, I always get lost in the middle of the song everytime I have to sightread a new song. This time, Yang was right next to me, and he (of course) played everything perfecty as written, so everytime I get lost, I can always catch up just by listening to him.

Neat isn't it?

I can actually sightread. That fact made me a little suprised.

It was last Friday. 

Honestly, despite the fact about Nikita's face who liked to stare at me AND my fingers (prolly observing how bad I played compared to Yang), I like sitting on that seat. I could play 1st violin part pretty well. And I told it to My Gray; how I can sightread my part.

He laughed and told me THAT was the goal of moving people's seat.

On Monday, Mr Gray made us sit randomly again, so I sat next to Yang AGAIN. This time, we sightread Dvorak's Symphony (I don't remember the number). BUT the 1st violin part was harder. WAY harder compared to the previous piece.

I knew where we were when we played. I know the exact measure and beat of the music. But this time, I couldn't play.

I just couldn't.

Okay, I could play like the first half of the song. And then there was a 3rd position part; I could definitely do it. Then there was 4th position, and then 5th.

Screw my life.

That was really beyond my ability, No kidding.

I couldn't catch up with Yang and other 1st violins. I was so mad at myself. Mad at my right side brain. Mad at my finger. Mad at my inability.

So, at the end of the rehearsal, I decided that I have to do something about my sightreading-retarded-ness.

I talked to Mr Gray, asking him if I can borrow any book for sightreading practice (because apparently I don't bring any music book from Indonesia). He lend me the Suzuki Violin Book grade 6 (if i'm not mistaken). He was wondering why all so sudden I wanted to borrow a book. And I told him how I feel so stupid with my horrible violin sound, playing next to the concert master.

"Stop it, Egalita. That's not the reason why I move people around. That's not what I want to see  from you after you played next to Yang. I don't want you to say you are stupid or something like that."

"Well too bad then Mr Gray. It's too late. I feel inferior already. Just give me the freakin book and I'll practice." (I did seriously say this :p)

"I'll give you the book. You can go practice, but no inferiority."

(this reminds me of something. "Inferiority syndrome". lol.)

Anyway. 

I almost skipped percussion ensemble practice after school because I really want to practice the damn book so then I dont sound as horrible on violin. But I did come after all. When I got back home, I practiced violin immediately, several hours until dinner time.

I was like possessed.

Here is the thing: I like violin.

A lot.

I hate to realize that I suck at it, especially when I play next to someone who is really good.

So, practice.

Practice.

PRACTICE.

I was being really stupid that I almost skip the school on the next day just so I can stay at home and practice violin for the entire day, but I didn't. I went to school today.

And Mr Gray move our seat again.

But Yang wasn't there. So Rahim sat as the concert master. 

Yayayaa. Rahim is awesome at violin too. But he's just funny, as in crazy. lol. Any today's song was really EASY, even the 1st violin part. So, I was totally fine. Especially after hours of sightreading practice yesterday.

I was going to take my violin home for today too, but then I have AP Calculus Test tomorrow! So I figured I won't have enough time to practice.

Well, long way to go!

You need to actually appreciate music and love your instrument to produce a meaningful sound.

-egalita irfan